ready for the next chapter

ready for the next chapter. I changed my piercing recently, and changed my meds. I dyed my hair a new shade of color that is more of a conventional color. I’ve been going to school in the summer and making myself busy 9–4 with school. the only thing that feels missing for me is school starting in the fall to really feel busy busy. but also, I’ve been listening to gospel and figuring out this season. the gospel music I found, Cleo Sol: etc i’ve just been worshipping for a breakthrough.

I saw a post today that said sometimes the breakthrough is a breakup. I just want the breakthrough of having a kingdom boyfriend with someone who is going to honor me. I don’t really know where I stand lately and so much is changing. I feel like i’m in a healthier place now, but am just readjusting after getting a med change. I sleep so much earlier now. maybe that’s just the schedule I have now.

I don’t really have a lot of close friends so I rely on that busy schedule. I yearn to be in love again. with someone who won’t leave me, and will be there to marry me. I don’t know if I already met the love of my life, and I’m just waiting on God’s perfect timing. I’m just praying for that kingdom boyfriend who will eventually be a kingdom spouse, husband hubby type energy for me. before we have children, get married type thing. I don’t know if that already exists in my life, but I want the official title of boyfriend in my life. I’m just waiting on so much, and praising God in the process as i’m studying + entirely busy by what school requires.

I’m just waiting on a breakthroguh with so much in my life. I notice myself getting older, and am 27. I’m not a baby anymore. I still feel like i’m a young woman, waiting on where i’m at right now. and building my portfolio with gospel music in the background. I notice my style changing, and me wanting to remove some of my tattoos. there is a lot of transformation and reloading/restoration right now. I catch myself feeling lonely, but I remember that God is going to make a way for connection/networking.